Its so early in the morning

Ugh ya idk what I'm doing up so damn early. I tried going to sleep but I can't. So of course you know your girl had to blog when she ain't doing a damn thangg. I was suppose to pull all night studying and doing hw but that stop at like 1 30. Took a nap for three hours, got more worried bout boo cause he didn't text back but finally got one at like 5, poor baby :( I decided not to even go class today cause I didn't study or even finish my hw.. damn i hate procrastination forreal. Even trying to change my ways is hella hard. I still gotta get ready soon to go day care then city for my mom's bday lunch thang thang with auntie paz and em.

My taller youger sister and thee moms

I just wanted to show everyone that ya I drink with my parents ha! sake bombs ayye and mother is pretty damn fayst at chuggin that shit

So this song is really nice by ashanti, dedicated to my mama. I know we may fight but I already know she forreal did hella for me especially when I was little. I mean I wouldn't blame her for getting mad at the way I act, cause forreal I can tend to be a bitch and people around me don't deserve that.

Lemme talk about the past couple of days.... I realized that relationships are hard but if its worth it then the couple will fight for each other and pull thru right?! Poor apple baby, if only dumb cunt wasn't such a dick head then everything would be ok. How is anyone gonna put WEED AND FRIENDS before the person you say you love the most. FUUCK that forreal don't mean to cuss but i gotta give it to that one nigs. I'm telling everyone that drugs really change a person, i know from expierence -_- and trust it really wasn't a good one. I hate seeing her down and out, I already said enough and I don't wanna push it. Also best I feel for what he going thru too. Girls are hard to deal with and very confusing. But if you know you ffff up in the relationship then grow from it and learn. Either in your next relationship or if she gives you another chance then you already know what to do to make it last. TRUST IS THE KEY TO MAKING IT WORK! I ain't gonna lie I love the relationship I am in now, he is forreal good to me and I don't want that to end. But I know in the future we gonna go thru some hardships but I hope and pray we will get thru it. "That even if we fight a million times over little things, we can still make it better." I believe that I'm settled and don't want anything or anyone else. I don't want to jinx or mess up our relationship. And I know yall saying you guys only in the beginning but whatever I'm saying now that I already fell for him :) and don't want NO ONE ELSE. Its that typa LOVE everyone wants, and been looking for. And I know everyone that reads my blogs and facebook and stuff haha think I'm all lovey dovey and corny haha but damn if you knew how my life is right now then duhh you would be hella jealous :P

Sorry everyone if Ive been MIA, I really aint just waiting for yall to hit me up. Cause right now i feel like I have no friends.. shat ha On Saturday fam party was fun but when kt and la left for lujan's house, kinda felt left out cause none of the boys even hit me that night to come kick it. I was like forreal damn I remember when they would always blow up my phone to come thru but I guess not anymore -_-